If you’ve never listened to Follow Your Arrow by Kacey Musgraves you should do it right now this second.
Lesson of the day: Do what you want
I wanted to be Beyonce once, but then I thought “you know, I’m me, and being me is infinitely better”.
No, it’s better to be Beyonce.
As Americans, we work far too much.
After another 12 hour day, I find myself wondering (as usual), why on earth do I do this to myself. The constant headache cannot be worth it. At this point I’m not even sure if the feeling you get when everything is accomplished is worth it.
Or maybe I just need to find my “passion” in life, if that exists. I feel like I need to go to a concert in order to feel something normal again. To regain the piece of me that seems like it’s been missing for so long.
Why is it always a battle between being able to feel things and being happy. Why are both unobtainable when combined?
Why does my head always hurt? Do I have a brain tumor? Maybe I should pray more. Do I only pray because I think it will help me improve my life? Do other people pray for all the wrong reasons too? How long will it take this broken toe to heal? Should I really stop wearing heels? Are taller women really less attractive? Am I actually a boring person? How do I get so much dust on me at work? Why is my life not more fabulous? How do you suddenly get a fabulous life? When will crop tops go back out of style? Did I remember to feed my frogs? Does the fact that I have frogs on my desk make me weird? Why are all men such idiots? I want bread. I want chocolate. I want coffee. Why does everything that tastes delicious make me feel so miserable? Does my butt look bumpy in this skirt? Is this man on the metro rapping to himself? His earphones look nice though, I should get myself a pair. Do I chose a new duvet or a new watch? Do you invest in one kettlebell or multiple? Am I normal or am I just actually crazy? Is there really a negative stigma with mental disorders anymore? Do normal people check Facebook this much? Or do I just suck at my job?
No wonder I’m so tired all the time.
Today I’ve learned that we all have times we feel alone, but the key is how you learn to cope with loneliness. I’ve spent so much of the last year feeling anxious because I was terrified of having no one it listen it me in my life. The thing is there’s always someone there to listen, you just have to talk to Him.
Mediocricity is not for me.
Time to work a bit harder.